I don’t want to give this topic a lot of energy but I need to vent.
About 3 years ago, I was diagnosed with Renke’s Edema which is a swelling of the vocal cords. My Ear Nose and Throat specialist also noticed scar tissue on my right vocal cord. After many visits with 4 different specialists in the field of speech therapy, I learned to perform daily warm-ups, exercises and voice conditioning that they recommended. At last check, the swelling was pretty much gone; yay me!; but the scar tissue remains; sad me.
I have made so many changes since this diagnosis and I’m still not where I want to be. I drink about 2 litres of water plus green tea a day, I warm up all and every day, I’ve cut back on caffeine, I’ve completely changed and improved my diet, lost 20 pounds in the last 2 years, I’ve seen 4 voice specialists, 4 natural healers and my throat and neck are still sore and tight after only a little bit of singing or talking. I feel I’m writing the best songs of my life and I hardly have the voice to sing them! Fuck.
Sorry, like I said, I just needed to vent. I’m so sad about it these days, it’s crushing me. I’ve worked so hard and only come so far.
So, I’ve made another appointment with my Speech Pathologist and I’m trying out another acupuncturist. Please help me focus on these good things, I find it really difficult to be positive when I feel like I’ve lost a part of something so personal and important to me.
Thanks.
*Positive imagery!*
- Mollie w/ Matt, Corey and Steve at Windfall Eco Festival
